By - ummyea19
Only because people have used my own vulnerability to hurt me later 🙃
Working on trusting better people
Ugh. Just had this happen recently. I'm so scared of looking vulnerable that it stops me from building functioning relationships. :/
why are you scared of looking vulnerable?
Because inside I’m nothing but a pathetic little boy scared and insecure, what I show people is a act and people have used my vulnerabilities to hurt me in the past, I’ve opened up to people that shouldn’t have at a very young age and they used that against me and made my life miserable.
Keep being that pathetic, scared and insecure little boy. We need some livestock to play with when it gets boring.
It's not only the past, now it's also the present that haunts you.
Wow, this makes me seem like a bully, and i seem to be vulnerable to all the hate from other people on reddit now. The next comment might finish me off.
People might actually be right about Aquarius males now that think about it, I’m going to check with my mom if I was actually born in January.
Sacre bleu, you are summoning reinforcements, and i am forced to withdraw. I bestow upon you the title of " bully slayer".
Am I playing dark souls right now? why are thee speaking like this good sir?.
I'm not sure if it is an Aquarius thing, specifically, or that I'm terrified of being a burden to those that rely on me for happiness.
I love making my loved ones happy. I don't want to see them worried or sad about me. So, maybe it is a pride thing?
I just want to be seen as strong, independent, and happy with my life but I'm honestly a big old mess.
You could say that the ammount of worry and sadness someone shows to you indicates a level of importance about you. Meaning your made a influence on them, which requires strength/ power. Like, what does the sadness and worry represent. What was lost? If i lost someting valuable i would feel sad and worry.
See I’m in this weird conundrum where I DO open up. And then I close up and cut off communication after that so it’s even more cruel to other people. I feel terrible.
I do the same thing
Is it because we don’t know what we actually feel about something/someone?
I love when memes call me out.
With me, there is a levee that breaks rather quickly. Then, much like blast of flood water, the worst comes out immediately. Feeling the relief of catharsis, I then joke about it and do my best to bend the wave to my will. Or at least convince myself that I have. ♒️