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I wAnt to die

I wAnt to die

tneo8

It's just a fight it will pass. Everyone makes a fool of themselves when drunk thats just the way being drunk is. Things will get better!


Ok-Honeydew7703

Than you for your kind words. I feel much better after o slept for about 12 hours.


Georgerajdixon

I'm also powerless over alcohol. If I have one I can't stop and I'm doomed to a horrible hangover the next day. Have you considered AA? Whether you are addicted or not, you'll find support there, even on a zoom meeting


Ok-Honeydew7703

Thank you. I am trying this sobriety thing. I realize i can't have just one. Since it's never only one. I was sober in 2020 for about 3 months. It was great. Anxiety was much better. But this year has been really messed up. I lost my job due to covid. My family and i dont have a great relationship. My dad and me specifically. Its really triggering for me to see him.


Georgerajdixon

I really do understand. It seems like the world has gone nuts and it's been bad for everyone's mental health. But good luck with the sobriety, I'm sure things will fall into place soon. Feel free to message me anytime


postaltossfromhere

That feeling sucks. The combination of physical and mental/emotional symptoms really doesn't give you a moment of respite. Remember you have survived every crisis up until this one, you'll survive many after. ​ This [Alan Watts lecture](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SxBmQpZ1lys) might be useful.


Ok-Honeydew7703

Ironically i started drinking to help cope with anxiety. Turns out it actually makes it way worse and also turns me into an obnoxious asshole.


schurbert2

Been there. Done that. It will pass. Check out some of the harm reduction reddits. r/stopdrinking or r/cripplingalcoholism . I have found participating in them helpful


kjs_melb

You sound very intelligent (well not the I want to die part). Give yourself a break. And reassess tomorrow 😀